Chemical Pregnancy

So it's almost been a month since I last posted. Since then I had a chemical pregnancy. I woke up on Sunday February 8 with horrible cramps. I thought it was normal, but the cramps turned to nausea. Then I just didn't feel well the rest of the day. On Monday, February 9 I woke up again with cramps but they never went away. I went to work but was almost doubled over in pain!! I went to the bathroom after a fire drill and there was blood. I immediately started crying because at that point I had lost my Baby Love.
I quickly explained what was going on and left school. I called the Dr and was in by noon. I was having such horrible cramps I knew it wasn't right. Jared was working out in Newark, but was able to make it home in time to take me. The Dr confirmed that the pregnancy test they took was already negative. He then did an internal ultrasound because I think he could tell I didn't want to believe him. He went on to show us my uterus was empty. Thats when it really hit us.
A chemical pregnancy is a very early miscarriage. I indeed was pregnant, but the baby didn't implant in my uterus for some reason or another.
Baby Love was only with us for a week, but I can't wait to have another one! God has plans for everything that happens. I am thankful it happened this eary on and I was able to pass it naturally. But it doesn't mean it hurt any less. The Dr told us we were able to start trying for another baby. All the "what-if" questions keep going through my head but I can't think of those, I can only look forward to the "when." I can't wait to be blessed with another baby in my belly!!
Since then I still am not taking any of my medications because who knows if this was something that could have caused it or not, but I want to play it safe. I am again extremely tired from not taking my ADD meds that help with my chronic fatigue. It makes it incredibly hard to make it through the day and I am in bed most nights by 8:30 or 9.
Jared and I have been able to move forward and know we will be blessed in the future with a precious little one. It hasn't been easy, but it is preparing us for our baby that we have and will hold a little longer, kiss a little more, and love unconditionally!! Even though it was an early miscarriage, my friends and family have been there every step of the way... more than I could have imagined!! Jared and I love them all and am so thankful for everything they have been to us~